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Yarn Along :: Dreaming

March 27, 2013

::Dream::

a series of thoughts, images, or emotions occurring during sleep — compare rem sleep

 an experience of waking life having the characteristics of a dream: as a visionary creation of the imagination : daydream

 a state of mind marked by abstraction or release from reality : reverie

 an object seen in a dreamlike state : vision

 something notable for its beauty, excellence, or enjoyable quality 

 a strongly desired goal or purpose 

 something that fully satisfies a wish : ideal 

Joining Ginny for Yarn Along today.

Dreaming is one of the most beautiful of the human experiences. Both while awake, and asleep, dreaming can take us to places that only our hearts knew we wanted to travel.

A few days back Bernadette and I were chatting online and she asked me “What are you going to do with all of that knitting if this baby turns out to be a boy?”

It was a logical question, since over the weekend I had posted to Instagram a photo of some rather lovely lavender yarn that was quickly making it’s way into becoming a baby sweater. Or should I say, blouse. You see, I have been doing a bit of knitting, and some of it has a distinct feminine vibe. Slowly, a few sweaters have materialized with ruffles, lace, and detail that is beautifully suited to a girl. So, you ask, do I know what we are having?

Not even a little bit.

I am dreaming, and my oh my, it is a beautiful dream at that.

I would love to have a daughter, it is something that graces my thoughts at least a few times a day, and certainly something that I have wished on just a few stars over. Friends have wondered if I am setting myself up for disappointment, but I gotta tell you, I would rather dream a big dream and take my chances on it coming true than to never express what is really on my heart.

Does that mean that I would be disappointed with a son, heck no! My three boys have to be three of the most loving towards their mama, and they have made my life so darn good, I have no right to even think of a fourth. No matter how much I love them, I still choose to dream that we might know what it is like to raise a daughter, that they might know what it is like to love a sister, and that I might get a little bit more feminity on my side at the dinner table.

So what will I do if it is a boy? First, thank the universe that he is healthy and happy. Second, wrap up those sweaters and become the best gift giver of baby clothes that my friends have ever known. It isn’t scary, it isn’t risky, it is a dream. I fully intend to ride that dream all the way into the labor and delivery room, and embrace and love whatever we are given.

Dream big my friends. As far as we know, this is the one and only life we get, and we should be willing to embrace the dream, even if we know full well that it only has a 50/50 chance of coming true. I pray every day that my kids take some big risks in their lives, that they wish and hope and dream for what they want, and that they embrace what they are blessed with.

And hey, can you imagine the love that a mother of four boys will get? My life is a dream already.

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