What We Were Waiting For

October 30, 2013

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It was a magical summer. Full of sunshine and warmth and smiles and quiet. Wait, no, not quiet. There is never any actual quiet in our household, but it was full of sunshine and smiles. Yes, those for sure.

These months away have been spent wrapped up in my family. When I was last here, I was facing a very intense situation with my pregnancy that left me on bed rest, with my cervix sewn up and all of my fears fully in tact. I spent the last 16 weeks of my pregnancy being told each week that my babe may make it’s appearance at any moment, and at the end of each of those weeks, my nerves were a bit shot. Every day seemed to be spent just in gratitude for making it that much further, and we all seemed to just hold our collective breath.

The spring drew into early summer, and time was beginning to bring back hope and excitement about meeting our child. We anxiously awaited the final piece of our family’s puzzle to join us, and as our fears began to subside just a bit, we began to dream of what this little one might be like. Would it be a sister or brother? Blond like Elwood or Landon, or dark and intense like Jacob? The bed rest had yielded an actual mound of hand knits, and I would lie awake and dream of him or her in each one.

It was, perhaps, the most intense time in my life. There were a lot of unknowns in this pregnancy, and I found myself leaning heavily on others to try and navigate my way through. I consider myself so so lucky to have friends and family who are really there for my family and I, and without them I know I would not have made it.

As the day of birth arrived, and I made my way down to the delivery room, the only thing I could think of was boy or girl. I wish I could describe that moment to all of you, but there are just no words. When my husband muttered “Is that a girl?” and my father whispered “you have a daughter”, my whole world changed.

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Emma Jeanne Catherine Fontenot (named for both of my grandmothers) arrived earthside on July 12th at 8:06 am. Her lungs were in full swing, and she declared herself proudly to all who would listen. She is beautiful to us in every way possible, and we will all spend a lifetime loving and caring for her. Her father and I sit in wonder almost every night (as we did with the other three), and talk about just who she might become. We dress her in an overabundance of pink and roses,  we have a pile of sewing and knitting patterns in the girliest of motifs, and we can not wait until her first ballet recital. We know, of course, that there is a good chance that she will hate pink and flowers, never want to wear a dress, and most certainly will play soccer like her brothers, rather than plie in ballet shoes. No matter, as long as she is a happy little girl, we will be over the moon.

She looks so much like Landon, that as of yet, we have not had to change out his baby pictures from the mantle over the fireplace. It is a little uncanny, and I am curious if their similarity will hold. Her brothers are so smitten with her, and most days are spent breaking up arguments about who gets to hold her, or push her, or dress her. Elwood, in particular, spends a lot of quiet time with his sister. He has always been drawn to young ones, and he wakes up a bit early just to come down and read to both she and Landon.

As the intensity of all of these moments have settled, I see myself as a mother ten years ago, just starting my journey (yes, Jacob just turned 10 last week! How is that possible?). I see those two little boys who crafted with me and made mud pies, stood on the learning tower and helped me to cook, took needle to hand and embroidered by my side, and I am just so excited to do it all again. Landon and Emma Jeanne are the same two years apart in age, and embarking on this journey for a second time with the two of them is magical. Having two older brothers to show them the way as well,  that is just bonus.

I thought that perhaps the discussion in this space was over, but as these months have gone by, I realize that there is a lot left to be talked about, and I am no where near ready to leave this space behind. I am excited to return to the things in life I love best, and to share them with my sons and daughter. We have been cocooned so beautifully within ourselves these past few months, but we are all ready to join the world once more.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers this past year. As I said, we most certainly could not have made it with out each of you.

{ 40 comments… read them below or add one }

underveis October 30, 2013 at 7:07 am

Congratulations and best wishes to you all!
Guri, in Norway

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Heather October 30, 2013 at 10:19 am

Thank you so much. :)

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MamaAshGrove October 30, 2013 at 8:08 am

Oh, my goodness!!! Congratulations!!!
My fourth pregnancy was also high risk, with bed rest, fears, and unknowns. I understand that fear in a mama’s heart. Hugs

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Heather October 30, 2013 at 10:20 am

It was a tough one, but oh so worth it.

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Andrea October 30, 2013 at 8:10 am

Lovely. Congratulations! On the new baby, and on making it through such a harrowing time. You’re one strong mama!

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Heather October 30, 2013 at 10:54 am

Thank you! It is so nice to be through, and be able to tell a sweet story :).

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Wendy October 30, 2013 at 8:45 am

Congratulations! Just lovely!

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:34 am

Thank you so much!

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Tonya October 30, 2013 at 9:00 am

Heather,
So much love to you and your beautiful family and little Emma – what an amazing gift!
(I also had three boys and then a girl and what a special joy it was.)
Thinking of you.
Love,
Tonya

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:35 am

Somehow I didn’t realize that your first girl was your fourth babe. I am loving those three older brothers!

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Brooke Gustafson October 30, 2013 at 10:28 am

Oh, so excited to hear from you here! She is such a beautiful lucky little one to have joined your awesome family. Congrats!

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:35 am

I have missed you my friend! So glad to reconnect :)

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Kim October 30, 2013 at 10:59 am

She is beautiful. Congratulations!

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:35 am

Thank you!

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Anna October 30, 2013 at 11:12 am

They are all so beautiful and I am so happy for you. And glad that this space isn’t dark for good. 😉

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:36 am

No, not dark for good at all! It is good to be back.

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Esme October 30, 2013 at 11:40 am

Didn’t you blog about losing your 3rd boy’s twin early in that pregnancy? I think I remember that. Maybe he didn’t lose her after all:) It certainly looks that way! She is beautiful. Congrats!

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:36 am

I never thought about that, but yes, I did. So much to wonder about in this amazing world of ours. Thank you for the thought.

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Tracey October 30, 2013 at 1:31 pm

Oh Heather, she is such a beauty, congratulations. I have thought of you often over the last few months and am so happy to see you back in this space and sharing photos of you beautiful family.

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:37 am

Thank you so much Tracey. It is so nice to be here, and to share the family.

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Jackie - Luna Grey Fiber Arts October 30, 2013 at 4:10 pm

Oh my…She is a beauty, isn’t she? Been thinking of you and hoping that all was well. So excited to see this big news!!! Congratulations, Heather : )

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:37 am

Thank you Jackie. It is so nice to reconnect with you.

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Jaime October 30, 2013 at 4:23 pm

I’m so glad you’re back in this space and with such happy, wonderful, exciting news. I don’t care to read many blogs, but yours is one of the few I find genuinely nourishing to my soul. Thank you for sharing your life, your ups and downs. I think it takes great courage to give so much of yourself and I really am appreciative of that. Your children are so beautiful. Congratulations!

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:38 am

Jamie, this meant so much to me. Thank you.

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stephinie October 30, 2013 at 5:19 pm

I just cried my way through this……. I am so happy for your beautiful family.
xoxo~
s

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:38 am

Thank you my friend. We could not be happier.

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Chtisty October 30, 2013 at 7:38 pm

My precious Heather, You are truely blessed with your beautiful family. I can only pray that my two beautiful girls will find the happiness and contentment that God has blessed your family with. I love all of you so very much and only wish we could be closer to each other and not so many miles apart. Love and kisses to all! Christy

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:39 am

Oh my, I truly am blessed. I pray that your girls can find happiness and joy, but I have faith that with parents like you and Vince, that is a very safe bet. I love you all so.

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Susan October 30, 2013 at 8:41 pm

Oh heavens! She is BEAUTIFUL. What a blessing to your beautiful little family. Congratulations!

I’ve missed you in this space but now we know why. So happy to see you back here for a visit.

Take care and ENJOY. EVERY. MINUTE :)

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:40 am

I am trying so hard to enjoy it all, and take it all in. Thank you for your sweet words.

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Jennifer October 30, 2013 at 8:50 pm

I just wanted to let you know I’m so happy to “see” you back here! But, I’ve also just enjoyed your flickr photos. Pictures with small captions sometimes are enough. Enjoy.

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:40 am

I have love telling a story in pictures. It really can be such a simple way to convey so much emotion. Thank you for your kind words.

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Serena October 30, 2013 at 10:07 pm

Your story brought tears to my eyes! Thank you for sharing your little blessing with us ♥

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Heather October 31, 2013 at 1:41 am

Thank you! In the end, it was a pretty easy to share. I find gratitude in that fact every single day :).

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lily boot October 31, 2013 at 4:58 am

Wee Emma Jeanne is such a sweetie! I’m so glad that your pregnancy was safe and you are all healthy and happy – what a terribly intense time you experienced! And just as sweet are those dear big brothers – what beautiful boys you have raised Heather, that they have and share so much love. She is sooo like Landon – their eyes are like mirrors of each other. I’m also glad to hear you will be writing more here – it will be lovely to call in and see what you’re up to.

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renee~heirloomseasons October 31, 2013 at 6:21 am

Dear Heather, You and your sweet little Emma Jeanne have so often come to my thoughts. So happy to see her here and all your beautiful family, I had to blink back tears.
Now isn’t nice that it has never yet worked out for a visit, cause now when it finally happens our two littlest girls will be there too :)
So much love to you all. And looking forward to the sewing, knitting, and craftiness!
Renee XOXO

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Taisa October 31, 2013 at 3:55 pm

Oh Heather, I have thought of you so often over the past few months, and, when I saw sweet Emma’s face on flickr I was over the moon for you. She is so lovely, and with my own first daughter in my arms, I write this with so much love and happiness for your family.
xoxo Taisa

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Gerri Smalley November 1, 2013 at 9:44 pm

Heather, I’m glad you’ve decided to continue sharing in this space. I’m so happy your family is doing well and is healthy!

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renee @ FIMBY November 2, 2013 at 7:26 am

It’s lovely to hear your voice again Heather.

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Adrie November 2, 2013 at 8:40 am

Heather – I was so thrilled for you when I heard you’d had a baby girl! Congratulations and so many hugs to you and yours, and thank you, as always, for sharing your story.
With love,
Adrie

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