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Right Now I Am: Waiting - Shivaya Naturals

Right Now I Am: Waiting

February 17, 2011

Could two full weeks really have gone by since I was here last? Time has felt like it has both rushed by, and stood still in these past few weeks.

I have to admit that I succumbed to what many a woman before me has done: I believed that I was just about to have my baby. I have been walking around at 3 cm dilated, and 90% effaced for about two weeks now, and each and every day I wake up thinking that today has to be the day. Of course, I simply just go to bed that same evening a bit bigger, a bit less able to turn over, but still very very pregnant.

I had been having wonderful labor patterns until about the 5th of February, when my children came down with a severe respiratory infection that landed my oldest in the hospital, and then all labor ceased. We spent a full week battling the ick that so many of you have already experienced, and I was glad that my body knew better than to try and attempt to bring a new life into the world while my two boys were struggling so (not to mention the husband, who was certainly my third child while he battled it as well).

So now, here we are. Not late, just perfect, having to readjust my thinking that my babe will be here soon, and that everyone is doing what they are supposed to be doing in these final days. My creative juices have not flowed, and I have just found myself being in the moment. I have been with my children, my parents, my husband, and my dear friends who keep making sure that we are well fed. I am assuming that it is a normal reaction to the quiet and slow days of waiting.

Whenever the little one arrives, We have their tiny space ready. A corner of our room that houses the dresser, filled with handmade blankets, diaper covers, wet bags, sweaters, and the clothes that the big brothers of this household wore just a few short years ago.

There is a gorgeous handmade mobile and gnome from my sweet friend Julia just waiting to greet this little being when they make their arrival home.

Changing pads, wet bags and wipes to make life a bit more colorful, fun and comfy on their little tush.

and of course, tons and tons of knitting.

I can’t wait until this little being arrives, to show you all that we have been creating to welcome them. For now, these tiny glimpses into the waiting, the longing and the hoping for a safe delivery and a very healthy baby.

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Kristina February 17, 2011 at 3:09 pm

I am so glad your body knew what to do. It is amazing, isn't it. I'm also very glad that your boys are feeling better. I'm holding out best wishes for a wonderful birth experience.

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Anna February 17, 2011 at 3:15 pm

Oh, I have been wondering about you — hoping that everything was ok. Glad to hear that you are fine and hoping all of your boys are feeling much much better. I love all of your creations for your new wee one. Crossing my fingers for a safe and easy delivery soon.

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jenna c. February 17, 2011 at 3:18 pm

i was just thinking about you yesterday, wondering if the baby had arrived yet. i love your blog and hadn't seen updates lately. i hope you are finding a little calm right now. thinking peaceful and loving thoughts for you and your family.

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Andréann February 17, 2011 at 3:27 pm

oh, that waiting time… Where time seems to stop. You made me want to be pregnant again, even if I was just 6 little months ago!
I wish you a wonderful labor… and a very healthy new little being 🙂

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Michelle February 17, 2011 at 3:28 pm

Our bodies are so intuitive are they not? Good luck with the birth of your new babe. It looks as if he/she will have a soft place to land.

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Its_Lily February 17, 2011 at 3:36 pm

Well, then, we'll wait patiently with you. It's easy to do with all that lovely goodness to look at. I'm selfishly hoping Julia will show us how she made your mobile. I love the little…well, not sure if they're birds or fish, but I'm calling them fish. That's why I love it so.

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twigandtoadstool February 17, 2011 at 3:42 pm

Just imagine…in a matter of moments really you will have a new little human being in your family!!! How exciting and mind boggling!!!
I'll be thinking of you and sending lots of birthing love your way!!!!
xo maureen

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Kelly February 17, 2011 at 4:20 pm

praying and thinking about you all as you get ready to meet your little one. the waiting at the end is so difficult.

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Angela February 17, 2011 at 4:26 pm

Sending you happy wishes and hugs your way as you wait. I love the little goodies that you have for your new member of the family-beautiful. I am glad the ick is gone. Man that stuff is going around isn't it. Be well and I'll be thinking of you!
xo,
Angela

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angie February 17, 2011 at 4:39 pm

You are so peacefully ready for this new little one…I can't wait to read about him/her. I often wish I went for the 3rd babe, but alas we got a puppy:) I help women bring their babies into the world for a living and I know that you will have a beautiful peaceful birth just when this little one is ready:)

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CatieP February 17, 2011 at 4:46 pm

I'm glad you are doing well and I hope your children are well on their way to being healthy again. I look forward to seeing your new little babe all decked out in handmade goodness.

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Kourtney February 17, 2011 at 5:15 pm

Wow. This could have been my own diary entry. I am not officially due until Tuesday, but I was at 3cm last week, and my greatest fear is that at my appointment today, my OB will tell me nothing's changed (grimace). The anticipation is killing!! Here's to waiting!

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emmalina73 February 17, 2011 at 5:23 pm

I've been thinking of you this last week particularly! I was 3cm dilated for weeks with my second son and his labour was very speedy so I take it as a good sign! Looking forward to seeing pictures of your latest treasure, I've a feeling she'll be a beauty : )

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Tonya February 17, 2011 at 5:32 pm

What an exciting time Heather… I love all of your preparations. Glad everyone had the chance to heal before the new arrival. That little crocheted gnome is just sooo sweet:)

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brooke February 17, 2011 at 5:40 pm

the body is an amazing thing! the waiting at the end is always the hardest! I am wishing you a happy and wonderful delivery and can't wait to meet little babe!

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kerry February 17, 2011 at 6:06 pm

Thinking of you and wishing you peace in the waiting for and in the arrival of your new babe!

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valarie February 17, 2011 at 6:13 pm

You've really been on my mind lately. So glad to hear the boys have recovered and I hope Jacob to truly be feeling well. Such lovely things you have waiting for your sweet little baby. I love Julia's mobile. So cute and nurturing. I'm waiting too, just waiting to hear who your new special sweetheart will be. Take Care.

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Stephinie February 17, 2011 at 6:32 pm

Every time you offer a peek into your life like this I am nearly choked up at happiness for your family. Awaiting the arrival of such a wished upon dreamt about little babe….. it's just so beautiful. Many blessings on a beautiful birth for you & the wee babe.

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anushka February 17, 2011 at 6:44 pm

so snuggly and loving this post is. i'm sorry to hear your boys have been so sick. i hope everyone is well now. i'm so excited for your baby to be born! sending you a virtual hug! xo

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Sarah Jane February 17, 2011 at 7:26 pm

I was thinking of you the other day and wondering if that babe has made his/her arrival yet! Everything looks so set. Take good care and many blessings to you and your family!

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Katharina February 17, 2011 at 7:46 pm

Good luck – may you have a beautiful birth!

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Nina - Tabiboo February 17, 2011 at 3:28 pm

Hopefully not too much of a wait now. I think that is always the hardest part for me – the waiting and not knowing – and it sounds like your babe will come when ready.

take care Heather and sending warm wishes from across the pond,

much love to you all,

Nina xxx

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arianne February 17, 2011 at 10:41 pm

So inspiring. I love that anticipation of birth. It's so exciting/exhausting! I LOVE that mobile. Absolutely love it! Blessings for your birth.

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lacey February 17, 2011 at 4:25 pm

oh! the wait can be so terribly back and forth. one minute ready, the next overwhelmed. I can't wait to hear what I'm sure will be a beautiful birth story. And, like a squirrel I am building a stock pile just like yours for this new little one. diapers, knitting, blankets. Honestly I'm having so much fun with the preparations this time that I'm not as anxious to get the pregnancy over with! (now that the sick part is over). I'm glad you're all back to health…

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kendra February 17, 2011 at 11:56 pm

thank you so much for taking the time to post and share here! holding you in our thoughts! <3

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Joy February 18, 2011 at 12:46 am

I'm glad your body held on through the sickness. Healthy and speedy labor vibes to you, Heather! xoxo

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Jodi February 18, 2011 at 12:50 am

I'm sorry that the dreaded wintertime sickness has descended on your family. You didn't need that! But, thankfully the arrival of your little babe was postponed. You certainly would have had your hands full. Everything looks so pretty and organized. Best wishes.

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Luisa February 18, 2011 at 1:44 am

Oh what a great space for all those handmades for the baby. So fun to look at.
I hope your family is doing better and you have a safe delivery when the time is right.

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Sherene February 18, 2011 at 11:10 am

I've been thinking of you and wondering. Thank you for the update. I'm so excited for you and your family- and any baby with that treasure of handmade goodies will be working their way out shortly to enjoy it all! Blessings for your last moments of pregnancy, labor and your little ones entrance to your family.

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jessica February 18, 2011 at 12:32 pm

Heather– This waiting stage has to be so delightful…cherishing every moment of the family of four before you become one of five! I cannot wait to see all that you have made for your little one…and to greet him/her!

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Francesca February 18, 2011 at 1:23 pm

Thinking of you!

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Kristy February 18, 2011 at 1:54 pm

Waiting for my baby too. Due the same time as yours. I am very excited. Dont think anything is happening yet though. What cloth diapers are you using?

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clarice February 18, 2011 at 3:44 pm

I think waiting is the hardest place to be, I am thinking good thoughts xoxo Clarice

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April February 18, 2011 at 5:16 pm

Oh Heather! So glad your baby/body waited until your kids recovered!
At the end of my last pregnancy, every day felt like groundhog day- every morning I would wake up and think, "really!? I'm still pregnant?!" I was 4.5 cm for two weeks- so, so ready for my baby. (When my midwives finally broke the bag of waters, he was born in less than 2 hours!)
Hang in there mama!! I'll be thinking of you…

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molly February 19, 2011 at 4:00 am

oh, heather, what a fortnight! i hope all your littles (and bigs 🙂 are feeling better. indeed, i believe absolutely that your body and babe knew to wait until the all clear.

there's no better place than the moment, right now. thinking of you, as this moment becomes the next one.

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Denise February 18, 2011 at 10:25 pm

thinking of you Heather. Cherishing every moment – what a wise thing to do!

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earth mama 101 February 19, 2011 at 3:16 pm

…and maybe you will get a birthday baby! Either way it will be pretty darn close! I have been thinking about you and your fam lots and lots. Sending lots of good labor and healthy baby vibes to you! Have a happy birthday yourself too!

:)Lisa

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Adrie February 19, 2011 at 9:19 pm

So very, very excited for you and your family (we just found out we have a new one on the way too, hooray!!). That mobile is the sweetest ever! Can't wait to "meet" your beautiful new babe.

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erin February 20, 2011 at 5:43 am

I love the mobile and all the baby *prep*. I walked around 3 cm dilated for weeks too, definitely made me excited for what my husband calls "baby day". Wishing you lots of rest!

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Julia B February 20, 2011 at 11:52 pm

thinking of you and your family at this moment – blessings to the new little life that will soon join you. what a wonderful world of love you are creating for them already….hugs ,julia

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6512 and growing February 21, 2011 at 2:40 am

Waiting with you…

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dani February 21, 2011 at 3:44 am

This post brought such a smile to my face.

Blessings to you, your family, and your future little addition.

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perches February 21, 2011 at 5:05 am

Oh goodness, so excited for you & your family. Wishing you all the best 🙂

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agambroult February 21, 2011 at 9:43 pm

Oh I have been thinking of you so much these past few weeks, wondering if you were holding that babe, or waiting. Looks like you are ready to go, with all that handmade goodness just waiting for baby to arrive. I am so glad to know your boys (and husband) are feeling better, how scary that must have been to have your boy admitted to the hosp.

Onward, I say! We'll look forward to your news soon. Until then, take care of yourself 🙂

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Nicola @ Which Name? February 22, 2011 at 4:49 am

I have been thinking of you often. Wishing this little one a healthy and joyous arrival into this waiting world.
Hugs, Nicola

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Renee February 25, 2011 at 12:14 am

I hope you have a wonderful birth. 🙂

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