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February 2011 - Shivaya Naturals

February 2011

The Circle

February 22, 2011

This will be my last post until after the wee one’s arrival, and since in the past few weeks I have not had the opportunity to visit all of your blogs the way that I normally do (and facing facts, I am a bit behind with email as well), I wanted to take just a quick moment to say thank you.

When I began this blog a few years back, I did so on the advice of a friend to share some crafty goodness, and to catalog the lives of my kiddos. Never could I have imagined that as I enter into one of the most important moments of my life, would I have the support and encouragement of so many amazing people with me who I have never actually met, but feel I know so well.

The Circle of Stones has grown over these past few years, and now as I call upon every ounce of courage and faith that I can find, I feel the strength and encouragement that you all have given me in these past 18 months. From the last loss that I sustained in October of 2009, to the present day, all of you have offered so many words of love and hope, and trust me when I tell you that I have needed and called upon them all.

Some day soon, life will return to normal and this space will be filled with sewing and knitting, spring fun and kiddos doing yoga, good food and celebration. For now, I just want to leave it in the quietness that gratitude can bring. I am grateful for all of you, and I am going to take your words, and your circle of stones with me into this experience. Even if I have not personally said it, you have all helped, and I am really lucky to have had so many prayers, thoughts and blessings for my family.

Thank you


Right Now I Am: Waiting

February 17, 2011

Could two full weeks really have gone by since I was here last? Time has felt like it has both rushed by, and stood still in these past few weeks.

I have to admit that I succumbed to what many a woman before me has done: I believed that I was just about to have my baby. I have been walking around at 3 cm dilated, and 90% effaced for about two weeks now, and each and every day I wake up thinking that today has to be the day. Of course, I simply just go to bed that same evening a bit bigger, a bit less able to turn over, but still very very pregnant.

I had been having wonderful labor patterns until about the 5th of February, when my children came down with a severe respiratory infection that landed my oldest in the hospital, and then all labor ceased. We spent a full week battling the ick that so many of you have already experienced, and I was glad that my body knew better than to try and attempt to bring a new life into the world while my two boys were struggling so (not to mention the husband, who was certainly my third child while he battled it as well).

So now, here we are. Not late, just perfect, having to readjust my thinking that my babe will be here soon, and that everyone is doing what they are supposed to be doing in these final days. My creative juices have not flowed, and I have just found myself being in the moment. I have been with my children, my parents, my husband, and my dear friends who keep making sure that we are well fed. I am assuming that it is a normal reaction to the quiet and slow days of waiting.

Whenever the little one arrives, We have their tiny space ready. A corner of our room that houses the dresser, filled with handmade blankets, diaper covers, wet bags, sweaters, and the clothes that the big brothers of this household wore just a few short years ago.

There is a gorgeous handmade mobile and gnome from my sweet friend Julia just waiting to greet this little being when they make their arrival home.

Changing pads, wet bags and wipes to make life a bit more colorful, fun and comfy on their little tush.

and of course, tons and tons of knitting.

I can’t wait until this little being arrives, to show you all that we have been creating to welcome them. For now, these tiny glimpses into the waiting, the longing and the hoping for a safe delivery and a very healthy baby.