The Joy Ride

July 2, 2010

Coming back from an absence is so much harder than I thought that it would be. I find myself stuck on how to begin, why I have been gone, and what the future holds.First though, I need to say thank you to all of you for your emails and for checking in to make sure that we are all OK. This community honestly never ceases to amaze me with how generous everyone is, and how caring.

These last two weeks (oh my goodness, has it really been that long???) have been a strange mixture of joy and fear, and they are just now beginning to settle into my psyche well enough for me to process.

Life has dealt me a new role to take on, and one that I am facing with excitement, but the transition into this new role has been a bit bumpy and has caused me to take a few days to crawl under the covers and hide just a little. I am, at this moment, going to be a mother of three children. Now I am really early in this new role (just coming into the sixth week) and by all accounts or anyone’s standards, I am a total lunatic for having just put that out into the universe, especially with my history of miscarriages. But you know what, I really don’t care because I have had my sense of hope tested these past two weeks and the lessons learned may well have changed me for good.

I am learning that hope is one thing that we can never let go of, never should let go of, and that a feeling of hopelessness leaves one with a hole so deep in their heart that it can be hard to climb out of. When I woke up late last week to discover that I was bleeding, I thought that was the end of my hope for another child. On the way to the doctor’s office everything just went numb. I was sure of what they were going to tell me, and what they would find. When the ultrasound was done, it revealed that I had a huge pocket of fluid leaking into my abdomen, and I was rushed over and admitted to the hospital for fear of bleeding internally. In all of the chaos of that moment, I barely had time to process that my blood work revealed that I was in fact still pregnant.

Just before I was admitted, my friend Missy called to check in and see how I was doing. As her words poured out I remembered a conversation just a few days back in which she asked me how I felt about the pregnancy, and I revealed that I did not want to get my hopes up. She reminded me that I was supposed to be hopeful and excited over being pregnant, that was the normal emotion, even despite all of the other miscarriages. Those words began to fill my heart back up, as I told her that I was not going to let go of this last thread of hope that this baby would make it.

And here I sit, almost six weeks pregnant, and full of hope.

I know the risks, I know the statistics, and I know the odds. It has been a rough two weeks, and I do have to admit that my emotions are drained. I also feel something new that in this journey of motherhood has never come up before; I feel as though I understand that life just simply goes on, and that if we have a sense of genuine hope, it goes on with much more ease.

I do not know what the fluid is in my abdomen. I do not know the cause, or what the outcome will be. I do not know if I will hold onto this precious life inside of me, and if I will one day hold it in my arms and whisper my love. I do know that no matter what, I will not lose hope. I will just simply keep pressing on and believing that one day the dream will come true. I also know that even if the worst happens, I will not allow the pain to consume me.

As is always the case in difficult situations, I am reminded that life really is pretty darn short, and that enjoying it and savoring every moment is about all we’ve got. For some reason these past two weeks have just brought me a desire to slow down a bit and enjoy. I find myself looking for things in my day that really bring me joy, and leaving behind the sense of speed with which life can so easily be lived. Admittedly, this only comes in tiny moments, like the joy I felt yesterday eating fresh asparagus and a farm egg for breakfast, but it is still there and I will take it whenever it shows up.

I have to admit that stepping away from this space actually reminded me how much I love it. I know that we all ask the question, at some point in this journey, of why we write a blog. I am grateful that the answer is simply that I like connecting with all of you, and I enjoy writing about the people, places and things that I find joy in. That is really about it.

So I am back to enjoy the summer, to share about how excited I am to have made the decision to home school the boys again, to return to my sewing machine and pick up my knitting needles. I am excited for the food in my garden and at the market, and for the heat of the sun that we have been blessed with this season. I am excited to hear all the same from all of you as well.

I hope that the beginning of the summer (or winter) has been wonderful, and that you are all getting ready for a great weekend. Stay safe in whatever you enjoy.

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Melissa July 2, 2010 at 10:18 am

Oh Heather, how wonderful! Congratulations on the little spirit growing inside of you. How courageous you are! Just remember you can hold you baby (you hold baby with you body let alone in your arms) and you can whisper your love to him or her now. This time is yours.
I was beginning to worry about what happened to you, but you are such a trooper i knew things would be ok. I look forward to holding your hand, week by week, with all the other readers, through this wonderful journey with you.
Love Melissa
ps, pop on over for a giveaway of the vintagie kind!

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ag ambroult July 2, 2010 at 10:28 am

oh, I am so happy you are back, I worried about you!
Congrats on your pregnancy! And I will be hoping, wishing, praying that this little love of yours continues to grow inside you. I am in awe of your resolve and strong sense of hope. Love what you said about life just simply going on, and that if we have a sense of genuine hope, it goes on with much more ease. I'm going to remember that…
welcome back but please know that if you need time away again, no explanation necessary. We all come here to be touched by your words, but only when you are ready to share them.

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Chris July 2, 2010 at 11:21 am

Heather, I know that feeling of daring to hope — but do hang on to it. (He's 12 this month and in the next room playing a video game as I type this.) I will have you and your little one in my prayers. I pray you have peace and stillness when you need it and that you can feed off the boundless energy of your other children when you need that as well. Take care of yourself and know that there are many of us who are pulling for that sweet babe.

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Meg Evans July 2, 2010 at 11:34 am

Your thoughts about hope are so beautifully expressed, and I will keep you and all your babies in my prayers. I'm glad you've resurfaced! Have a happy fourth of july!

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Joy July 2, 2010 at 11:39 am

I'm happy you're back, Heather. I've missed you. You've had alot going on! I hope things even out and you can have a peaceful pregnancy. Congratulations! ((hugs)) and *hope* sent your way!

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willowluna July 2, 2010 at 12:16 pm

Oh, Heather-I've been thinking about you ever since the email went out that you were in the hospital. I didn't write because I figured you were recovering from whatever had put you in that place and needed rest. I was wondering if you were pregnant again and HOPING it wasn't another miscarriage that had you in the hospital. Here I am, hopeful along side you. Bright Blessings!

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Lise July 2, 2010 at 12:28 pm

Oh, I'm so glad to "hear" your voice; I was worried about you. My thoughts are with you and your little baby and your family.

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Linda July 2, 2010 at 12:33 pm

Dear Heather,
I am so glad all is well! I was really starting to worry. How wonderful that you are pregnant! I am sending positive thoughts your way:)
Take care,
Linda

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cat July 2, 2010 at 12:43 pm

oh my dear heather…:) the news of a new life is just music to my ears! another dear friend of mine just found out similar news herself and has traveled a similar path in her history. so hope is spreading!! i am sending all the love and happiness and stickiness and hope my soul has for you. many congratulations to you and your family…and much love too!!!

xoxoxox

cat

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jessica July 2, 2010 at 12:45 pm

Heather-
Hugs and joy to you! I am thrilled for you and your family!!!

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Lisa Q July 2, 2010 at 12:48 pm

such great news Heather….do savor every moment of your pregnancy…fear is such a thief. don't let it steal your joy or your hope. You'll be in my prayers… soak in the sun and enjoy the beauty around you.

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Kelly July 2, 2010 at 12:51 pm

congratulations and many prayers for your family!!

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Kimmie July 2, 2010 at 1:05 pm

Pfew, I was wondering about you yesterday.. I am happy your back, thrilled about your pregnancy, and amazed by your regained hope and strength. Keep it going…

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Luisa July 2, 2010 at 1:25 pm

What an amazing post.. Wow! That certainly was quite a journay glad that you are back and returning to the things that you love with your family. Congratulations on the pregrancy!

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Childhood Magic July 2, 2010 at 1:31 pm

Congratulations. Wishing you love and wealth and health and happiness!

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imene July 2, 2010 at 1:32 pm

I don't care about statistics, You are PREGNANT and that is great news!!! I wish and hope all is well with you. But you have to take it easy!! Promise me that!

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Maeghan July 2, 2010 at 2:04 pm

Congrats Mama! I am just elated for you and will pray for you and your little one growing inside of you. Please take it easy, relax and enjoy this amazing time. Glad you are back and I have been praying for you everyday, now I know why you have been so frequent in my thoughts. Hugs…. AOE sister

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anushka July 2, 2010 at 2:10 pm

beautiful and inspiring post. real life struggles can bring about such positive change and transformation and you are truly a vessel of positive transcendence heather! thank you for sharing with us all what you are going through. i am seeing the newborn baby posts already and look forward to all of what is to come. am interested too in your decision to continue homeschooling. my best wishes to you for a relaxed summer and love, health, and happiness!

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Roxy July 2, 2010 at 2:15 pm

Heather! i am so happy for you – don't let that fear of miscarriage steal the joy from this beautiful pregnancy. (Easier said than done, I know – I've been there.) Babies are such miracles. Savor this miracle. :-)

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Gabriella July 2, 2010 at 2:35 pm

Sending you prayers with the best wishes

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heather July 2, 2010 at 2:41 pm

heather ~ first, congratulations sweet mama!! what a blessing! the hope that you harbor and demonstrate is a blessing as well – to your littlest babe, and to those already born to you… and well, to all of us too. i wish you a healthy journey heather, body mind and spirit. xo

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brooke July 2, 2010 at 2:47 pm

I have been patiently thinking of you and your family, waiting for your next post and glimpse into your wonderful world. I am so excited and hopeful for you! I think you should remain hopeful just like with any new experience (although, I have never been through what you have) That baby is one lucky little thing no matter where life takes you. Keep savoring those eggs and asparagus… the little things are what life is made of.
I too love this network of women who care and check in no matter that we have never met. Amazing. And thanks for checking in on me.
I will keep you in my thoughts.
Happy 4th! Hope you guys have a safe and wonderful weekend! Glad you are back.

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GinnySheller July 2, 2010 at 2:51 pm

I am so glad you are back, I've been checking in regularly. This new life, and you, will be in my prayers!

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Sarah July 2, 2010 at 2:51 pm

Heather – I, too, have traveled a similar path – having lost 4 pregnancies. But here I sit and will become a first time mom in the week or two! Your post brought tears to my eyes because I know the feelings of uneasiness followed by realizing that I just have enjoy every moment and be hopeful and excited. I wish you all the best. Congrats Momma!

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Lecia July 2, 2010 at 2:53 pm

Welcome back Heather!! Congratulations. xoxo

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Tricia July 2, 2010 at 3:05 pm

Congratlations!! Its lovely to see you back in this space. i'm sending you and your new precious little one lots of strength x.

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Kristi aka FiberFool July 2, 2010 at 3:31 pm

What a rollercoaster! I think you are taking the proper tactic though and I wish you and your family all the best on this next one. You guys deserve it!

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Its_Lily July 2, 2010 at 3:35 pm

I'm delighted for you. Congratulations. How nice it will be to add a little girl to your bliss. Enjoy the moments as they slowly add up to days, and then weeks, and finally birth. It was a long time ago for me, but I loved every moment.

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Danielle July 2, 2010 at 3:48 pm

Congrats!! I'm so happy for you and I'm sorry for all the worry you're going through. I had bleeding durring my last pregnancy and I spent so much energy and worry on it but everything came out beautifully and I have my dear daughter to love (and secretly hoping for another one). My thoughts are with you and hold on tight to that little one inside and never underestimate the power of positive thinking!

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Angie July 2, 2010 at 3:51 pm

So glad you are back and doing well. Congratulations on the amazing news!!

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Brittany July 2, 2010 at 3:57 pm

Oh Heather, how exciting for you that you are holding a precious life within you…we will join you in your sense of hopefulness that all will be well. Welcome back for as much or as little as you feel you would like to give of yourself in this space. Peace and blessings, Brittany

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annri July 2, 2010 at 4:02 pm

holding you and yours in my thoughts. keep your hope; set your worry on a slow-moving cloud.

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shizzknits July 2, 2010 at 4:20 pm

Heather, I'm so happy to hear of your new motherhood journey! I'll be keeping you in our thoughts and prayers….And welcome back!

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samthehamsmom July 2, 2010 at 4:22 pm

Heather, how exciting!!!! I am so happy for the 4 of you. All pregnancies are a journey, and I am hoping this one is fruitful. I wish you peace of mind, and to know that I am thinking of you. Congratulations Friend, Laura

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Kristina July 2, 2010 at 4:28 pm

We love you and hold you and your wee one, as well as the rest of your family, in our thoughts.

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Jen July 2, 2010 at 4:40 pm

All I can say is thank you for sharing yourself and your life in such an honest and pure way. Blessings to the little one inside you and blessings on this journey you take together.

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eliz~ so wabi sabi July 2, 2010 at 5:02 pm

Heather,
I'm so glad you are back. I was worried about you, but I trusted that you were taking a much needed break from things. I am so happy for you and full of hope. Hold the vision of the present (and future) you want. In other words, stay focused on what is true. Another blessed being has chosen you as their mother. You are blessed indeed!
Love and blessings~
Elizabeth

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cara July 2, 2010 at 5:27 pm

your honesty is beautiful. i completely understand pregnancy after loss.
http://alittlebear.blogspot.com/2009/06/eeeeeeee….

that baby is yours and you can claim it, no matter what.

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kristy July 2, 2010 at 5:37 pm

How exciting. I am also six weeks pregnant. Very excited but very anxious. This will be my first. Glad that you are back to this space., You were missed.

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jennbenn July 2, 2010 at 6:30 pm

I am so happy and hopeful for you! Every day is one day closer to your dream and precious baby. I know it is hard to not be worried, but I think your friend spoke the wisest words!
Good luck and happy baby blessings!

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Debbie July 2, 2010 at 6:47 pm

Congratulations! I just knew when you came back to the blog you'd have something big to share. Your never gone that long. I can't tell you how happy I am to hear that you've decided to homeschool again too. Oh and the knitting you can do for a winter baby…just think of it!
You made my weekend.
Debbie
xo

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Tonya July 2, 2010 at 7:19 pm

Oh my dear Heather. My eyes filled with tears as i read your post. You have been in my prayers daily during your absence from this space… I did have visions of a little one growing inside you and was wondering if you were not feeling well and then when Joel said you were admitted to the hospital in an email, I was worried.
Your post if full of courage and I love how you are holding on to hope! All we do have is today so we must embrace it.
Also, please know that through sharing you are blessing others. With lots of love and prayers, Tonya

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Valarie July 2, 2010 at 8:18 pm

Oh my dear Heather. I have thought about you so much over the last two weeks and didn't want to be invasive but there hasn't been a day I haven't thought of you. I though it was your finger. What great news to hear of this new little life that you are expecting. I remember the last time you needed hope you knit something so beautiful. My grandma always said" if you need something to be permanent then make it permanent." I'm pulling out the sticks and string now to make something for your new little one. Remember, you are pregnant at this moment, and this moment is the only one that matters. Your sweet little one is going to have the two best big brothers in the whole world. I want to do something for you, please just let me know how I can help. Here is a big hug XXXOOOO.
Valarie

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Ann July 2, 2010 at 8:24 pm

Take care, relax and enjoy every moment.

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Nina - Tabiboo July 2, 2010 at 2:37 pm

Oh Heather – I was only just thinking about you this morning and wondering if I had missed something or if you had gone on a vacation as I had a feeling something was amiss.

I am so glad that you are (all) OK and what fabulous news. Treasure these moments no matter what the future brings. Be happy, excited and enjoy every moment.

take care and much love,

Nina xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Nicola @ Which Name? July 2, 2010 at 9:12 pm

Welcome back. I've missed you. With huge hugs and hope,
Nicola

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Anna July 2, 2010 at 9:33 pm

Oh dear friend, I am so happy for you and hopeful. I am sending all of the good thoughts and energy I can to you. I hope that the doctors figure out what is going on with you and that you are well and healthy soon and that everything goes exactly they way you hope. You are an incredible person and your children are so lucky to have you!

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Gypsy Mama July 2, 2010 at 9:34 pm

Congratulations…. what a perfect post….. the last few weeks I was hoping the reason for your absence was early pregnancy….. I think putting it out there for the universe to see shows the depth of your being…. and what could be better than all of us hoping and dreaming right along with you. Take care & be well…… I'll be thinking of you.

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Michelle S. July 2, 2010 at 11:44 pm

I'll be hoping with you Heather that this little one sticks around long enough for you to meet her/him. Take care of yourself and it is good to hear from you again.

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Leanne July 3, 2010 at 1:54 am

Oh Heather you have been walking a bumpy path….but your happiness and hope is magical. Such wonderful wonderful news!! Much love to you.

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Emmalina July 3, 2010 at 1:56 am

Heather I just have to respond to your incredibly brave post. I was 7 weeks pregnant when I attended my mum's funeral, full of sadness and full of hope. I'd lost a previous pregnancy at 11 weeks but I refused to be cowed. I was only a month pregnant when I shared with my mum that I was pregnant, it was our last conversation. I dared to hope and because of that I shared joy with my mum that I otherwise would have missed. There is so much sadness forced on us that to hope is our only chance. When we embrace every moment of joy we can, we defy the sadness, we refuse it. The little bundle of cells I was so hopeful of now lies asleep, his hair wild about him, his limbs thrown out. He was meant to be here with us. I am sending you love, prayers and hope for this future bean. May the gods be with you on this one my friend xxx

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Francesca July 3, 2010 at 2:15 am

Oh, Heather, I'm so happy for you, and I'm thinking of you and hoping with you.

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Lori July 3, 2010 at 6:39 am

Dear Heather, this post is the reason we blog i think, the human connection, understanding and compassion we all need and seek. You are wise beyond your years. I know keeping a pregnacy to ourselves until it is "safe" to reveal is cheating ourselves and all those who love us. No matter what happens, you need love and support and everyone who knows and loves you wants to give you that.

Many blessings to you and your family and even though we've just met, i'll be holding this precious new soul in the light.

♥ lori

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Jennifer July 3, 2010 at 11:12 am

Heather, I was so happy to see your blog post in my email inbox this morning! Congratulations on your pregnancy! I can also relate to your feelings. My first two pregnancies ended in miscarriage but I also announced each pregnancy very early because I felt like each little soul deserved the same celebration, excitement, hopes and prayers. I will being saying prayers for you and your little one. Take Care.

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Twig and Toadstool July 3, 2010 at 11:47 am

Sending abundant JOY to you…and *hope* that this babe stays right where he or she is!
Take this as a time to rest…read books…sit with your feet up and let your family take care of you.
with LOVE
xo maureen

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heirloomseasons July 3, 2010 at 1:35 pm

Keep your hope, hold it close, never let it go!
Thinking of you, sending lots of love and well wishes!
xoxo Renee

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Adrie July 3, 2010 at 1:49 pm

Heather, I'd been wondering about the quiet, and now my heart is filled with hope for you, too! Many blessings on the child within you, and blessings on your journey, whatever it may hold. So wonderful to hear your words, as always.

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suzlipman July 3, 2010 at 5:57 pm

Dear Mama Heather — It's so wonderful to hear from you again. I wish you and the baby abundant good health. I hope that sharing with your blog community has been a comfort and that the blessings and inspiration that you have put out continue to come back to you many times over.

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Audra July 3, 2010 at 10:12 pm

Heather, what a beautiful piece of your heart you have shared with us! Your courage and choice to embrace hope is inspiring. I will be keeping you in my prayers and thoughts as you walk these next weeks and months. Your last few paragraphs about seeking out the joy every day and slowing down really resonates with me right now. Thank you for sharing and welcoming us into this part of your life.

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Camille Dumas Davis July 4, 2010 at 1:40 am

God bless you Heather.
Love, Camille

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netc23 July 4, 2010 at 1:44 am

well congrats! I hope all goes well. I do think mindset has quite a bit to play in our health and such so here's hoping it helps you at this time.

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Julia B July 4, 2010 at 2:35 am

Heather, I was sure something big was happening in your life. I was hoping that it was a good thing. I am pleased to learn that it is though sorry to hear that you had to go through such a troubling scare.
I will keep you and your hope in my prayers and I will add some of my own hope to the universe, in the name of this dream coming true for you! blessings xo

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Paige July 3, 2010 at 9:26 pm

Congratulations to you and your family, Heather – I'm wishing all the best for you!

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Esme July 4, 2010 at 3:38 am

Telling just allows us all to pray for you and your baby…I too am early in pregnancy and you will be in my thoughts.

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cathleen July 3, 2010 at 9:59 pm

Heather…I am so happy for you….congrats, blessings and many, many hugs. There is nothing more wonderful in this life then a brand new baby!!!

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Earth Mama July 4, 2010 at 4:25 am

Congrats Heather!!! I am so happy for you. Your words just jump off the page as I read them with hope…hmmm…Hope. You have opened your heart here and will have so many people hoping and thinking of you and this new little bundle. I look forward to sharing the summer with you in this space.

:)Lisa

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patty-jean July 4, 2010 at 2:41 am

Heather, Thanks for your vulnerability! Our hearts, thoughts and prayers will definitely be with you, your family and your precious little one on the way – Congratulations!
Just as we can draw from the other women around us and that have gone ahead of us in birthing and pregnancies – you can draw from others in this time.
I've had 5 pregnancies, 3 beautiful children and 2 losses. My 2nd born was conceived just weeks after a loss, and then I began to bleed – they found that it was a blood clot (never found out why), and yet here stands a bright 3 year old son – who I can say that I experienced bleeding while carrying him.
Hope is the best route! And we will all be hoping and expectant along with you. Be blessed.

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mary July 4, 2010 at 4:10 am

so happy for you… i often think about your little hope chest with the sweater on top and say a prayer for you… xo

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MammaNatura July 4, 2010 at 11:49 am

thanks for your comment on my blog! I always follow you with love!

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Lovely World July 4, 2010 at 1:09 pm

All the best during these days of uncertainty. Life is a leap of faith, isn't it?

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mamawild July 4, 2010 at 7:07 pm

Heather, I wish I had words of wisdom and comfort that you could draw from, but I do know how hard it can be to recover from lost joy. Though the words escape my mind and fingers here, they do not escape my heart. I'll be thinking of you in this new and uncharted jouney. I wish for you all joy, and congratulations. (((hugs)))

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clarice July 4, 2010 at 7:20 pm

Congratulations Heather, I am soo happy for you. I am thinking good thoughts !!! Clarice

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helen July 4, 2010 at 7:32 pm

Dear heather, I am so glad that you are back and so happy about your wonderful news. I like many others have been checking in over and over to see where you were and I was so glad today when I saw there was a post. Life is indeed precious and to be treasured and savoured something your blog often reminds me of. May the little grain growing in you feel the love and hope surrounding it and may you feel the love and hope surrounding you and your family. I will hold you and this baby in my thoughts.

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Jessi July 4, 2010 at 8:10 pm

I had a similar experience when I was 10 weeks pregnant with my daughter, and she is now a healthy 16 month old. Best wishes to you for a healthy and happy pregnancy!

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geek+nerd July 4, 2010 at 2:38 pm

Oh Heather! I was so worried when I received the e-mail from your husband. I am sorry that you had to go through the hospital stay, but it sounds like the end result is happy news! I'm going to be sending out some fierce protective vibes to that little babe of yours.

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Jude July 5, 2010 at 1:51 am

Many blessings to you Heather and your family.
On this grey winter day I look out over the mountains to see deep dark clouds with glorious silver linings.
Wishing you all the silver linings in the world, Jude

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NicoleFrontierDreams July 5, 2010 at 5:25 pm

Heather, CONGRATS! I am so sorry for the rollercoaster you have been on these past weeks and I am about to e-mail you but I just wanted to post here and let you know I am here for you!! <3 <3

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Brandy July 5, 2010 at 9:19 pm

You and your family are in my thoughts. It was really a nice reminder to be full of hope during each pregnancy. Thank you

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Angela July 5, 2010 at 10:11 pm

Congratulations! Thank you for sharing your story with us. I have just discovered your blog..Folks don't always believe it, but people make such connections on blogs, and the community is a great source of support. Thank you for being such a wonderful example of how to live and approach the difficulties life sends our way. Wishing you peace and contentment! Congratulations!

Peace,
Angela

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Jennifer B. / B'klyn July 5, 2010 at 11:22 pm

I've got only a little to say, through totally unexpected tears: You are a wonderful, strong woman. My heart is with you on this journey, wherever it will lead you.

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Megan July 6, 2010 at 12:21 am

Thanks so much for sharing. You and the little one you are carrying are being prayed for.

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Tracy July 6, 2010 at 12:22 am

Heather – I don't know personally the rollercoster of pregnancy as my daughter came to me through adoption. I commend you on your strength, courage and mostly hope. How beautiful to know that that life is still alive in you. Peace. Tracy

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perches July 6, 2010 at 2:27 am

wishing you love and success and hope.

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Julie July 6, 2010 at 1:25 pm

I am happy you are back. I was wondering if everything was O.K. I am so very excited for you, my thought of you and your growing family will be in my thoughts!
congratulations!

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Andrea July 6, 2010 at 2:12 pm

Welcome back! What beautiful and inspiring words. Wishing you all my best for a healthy pregnancy and keeping that hope alive!
Andrea

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stacyZ July 6, 2010 at 3:18 pm

love you sweetness.

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6512 and growing July 6, 2010 at 3:35 pm

The Joy ride indeed! Congrats and may it be a smooth and uneventful ride!

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kendra July 6, 2010 at 8:45 pm

sending lots of love and light thoughts your way! thanks for sharing with us too – i know i'm not the only one who's had you on their mind! < 3

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Andrea July 7, 2010 at 12:34 am

I am so happy for you! I really enjoy reading your blog. I think what I love most about blogs is hearing the true inner feelings of other Mama's out there. I think it is so awesome that we can support each other in this way, in a time and age when sometimes even our own neighbors do not extend a hand of thoughtfulness and caring.

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Pipany July 7, 2010 at 9:09 am

Wow, it's the first time I have visited your blog Heather and I find this amazing journey you are on. Much love and luck to you x

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Mélanie July 7, 2010 at 12:36 pm

What a beautiful post. Reading it has filled my own heart with hope (and my eyes with tears). I'm sending you and your little bean much love, strength and hope.

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Courtney July 7, 2010 at 10:21 pm

Oh so much love and health to you. I have experienced some hopelessness and it is a silly place to be for sure because above all else – hope is on our breath – we just have to breathe deep enough. So happy for you. Hopefully some day this year or next, I will share the same news. Well wishes!

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denise July 7, 2010 at 10:46 pm

Oh, hugs. Hope is good. I made it through a pregnancy (after several miscarriages) which included scary bleeding – it was a Subchorionic Hematoma – and I have a lovely 5 1/2 year old boy to show for it. Best wishes…and a glass raised for hope.

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MamaBird July 8, 2010 at 1:14 am

Sending love & prayers your way….

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shannon July 9, 2010 at 2:41 am

you are beautiful. sending big hugs your way. xoxo

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Jeanene July 10, 2010 at 12:42 am

A very special time in your life. Savor every moment!

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Jill Mann July 23, 2010 at 4:19 am

Heather,
Reading this blog post is just what I need. I have gone from pregnant this week and the elation that follows with that to devastated as the tests have grown lighter and lighter and now spotting has started. This is my 4th loss in two years with my last one being the delivery of a 16 week old little girl. The fact that you write on hope is just what I need to hear. I still am holding onto the hope that happiness will come again soon in my life. I hope you're well and I will send a prayer your way. Again, thank you for being honest and writing out everything.

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