Moving Forward

July 9, 2010

Oh my, this has been a very strange week.

I know that some of you saw the post on Monday morning saying that we had lost the baby, and many more of you emailed to ask why I had suddenly taken the post down on Monday afternoon. As it turns out, the doctors believe that we were carrying twins, and lost one but are still holding onto the other. When we visited the ER on Sunday, the doctor never saw the second baby, and he was sure that we were simply experiencing another full loss.

Emotions have been high this week, and I have to admit that I have felt like anything but myself. When I came to this space last week, I thought that I would be back here just as before, but it turned out that we needed a bit more time. At the moment I am just glad to be back at home, and grateful that this little one has decided to see this journey through.

Thank you all for your emails and phone calls and comments. I normally try and only keep the positive in my posts, and I appreciate your kind words through this time. I will be back here in this space on Monday, and I just look forward to settling back to normal.

Have a wonderful weekend

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Sarah Jane July 9, 2010 at 2:55 pm

Praying healing and normal come soon and often.

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brooke July 9, 2010 at 2:58 pm

Thinking of you and your family. Hoping this rollercoaster takes you to where you want to be.

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kendra July 9, 2010 at 2:59 pm

love to you and yours! <3

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eliz~ so wabi sabi July 9, 2010 at 3:04 pm

***sending love and light***

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KimmieKusz July 9, 2010 at 3:11 pm

Keep your feet on the ground and your head in the clouds, make yourself tall and all will be well in the end.
Many hugs,
Kim

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Joy July 9, 2010 at 3:32 pm

((hugs)) and healing thoughts, even a bit of hope, to you, Heather!

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willowluna July 9, 2010 at 3:48 pm

So glad and happy for you that the other babe seems to be staying with you. All the energy of this blooming, growing season be with you.

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Stephanie July 9, 2010 at 3:51 pm

So glad this baby has decided to stay for the journey :) My thoughts and prayers are with you. I can only imagine the emotional rollercoaster you've been on, hopefully things will be a bit calmer soon. Have a great weekend Heather!

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Mary Beth July 9, 2010 at 3:56 pm

Super happy about this baby! And at the same time very sorry for your loss of the first twin. Sending warm thoughts your way.

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Lacey July 9, 2010 at 3:57 pm

i hope the worst has passed! real prayers & e-hugs coming at you! 😉

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oakbee farm July 9, 2010 at 3:59 pm

Thinking of you and sending happy, healthy, healing, hopeful thoughts to you and your family.

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Elizabeth July 9, 2010 at 4:06 pm

Praying for you and your family. May you find peace where you are.

Blessings, Elizabeth

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Its_Lily July 9, 2010 at 4:08 pm

~~hugs~~

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Andrea July 9, 2010 at 4:10 pm

Hopes and wishes going out to you for a happy and healthy pregnancy and baby. I hope you're taking some time to nurture yourself.

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Angela July 9, 2010 at 4:11 pm

Sending you happy, peaceful and healing thoughts. I experienced the same roller coaster with my last babe who is now 16 months old. Keeping you all in my thoughts. Thank you for sharing with us. Have a wonderful and restful weekend!
Peace,
Angela

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Maeghan July 9, 2010 at 4:16 pm

hugs…

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Linda July 9, 2010 at 4:27 pm

Dear Heather,
Sending love and light your way:)
Take care
Linda

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vanessa July 9, 2010 at 4:37 pm

heather- you are in my thoughts. Sending you lots of wonderful energy and GROWTH for that little one.
take your time, take your time.
breathe and be well.
hugs from nevada.

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Polly July 9, 2010 at 4:44 pm

love you

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Nancy July 9, 2010 at 5:20 pm

thinking and thinking of you…

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Lise July 9, 2010 at 5:28 pm

Thinking about you and your babe and sending hopes for the best possible pregnancy from here on out.

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Melanie July 9, 2010 at 5:39 pm

lots of love from my family to yours. you have been in my thoughts constantly this last week. hugs!

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Audra July 9, 2010 at 5:42 pm

Heather, I will be praying for you and your baby as you wait this out.

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Chris July 9, 2010 at 5:52 pm

Prayers for you and good thoughts to you this weekend.

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Kelly July 9, 2010 at 6:11 pm

praying for you guys, take it easy, I hope you get some rest!

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deb from NZ July 9, 2010 at 6:12 pm

i'm praying this little one sticks around! Many thoughts for you at this time xxx

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Olivia July 9, 2010 at 6:20 pm

Glad to hear this wonderful news! May this little one hold on and grow stronger with each passing day. Take care!

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mommarae July 9, 2010 at 6:21 pm

big, big hugs to you sweet mama!!! my heart and prayers will be with you. xoxoxo

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Tonya July 9, 2010 at 8:24 pm

Really praying for you and sending lots of positive thoughts – take very good care of yourself.

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Jennifer Tan July 9, 2010 at 8:27 pm

I'm sending positive energy your way. :)

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Francesca July 9, 2010 at 9:12 pm

You're in my thoughts, always. Hugs.

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Sarah B. July 9, 2010 at 10:12 pm

Holding you in my thoughts, as a Mama who has experienced multiple losses, I understand the place you are standing in between hope and fear. Hold on little babe! (hugs)

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Donna July 9, 2010 at 10:37 pm

Sending you many blessings and good energy :)

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Unearthing This Life July 9, 2010 at 10:54 pm

Many hugs for you and your family. You're in my heart and on my mind.

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annri July 9, 2010 at 10:56 pm

That moment definitely qualifies as one where the doc might say, "You may want to sit down before you hear this," because it must have been very disorienting news to receive! Best wishes for your comfort and wellness.

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Courtney July 9, 2010 at 11:01 pm

take care of yourself and you know you owe us nothing in this space – do what feels right for you at the time. hugs to you and your husband – and well wishes for the new one

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AdirondackMama July 9, 2010 at 11:05 pm

I know you are swamped, but I emailed you. I am so freakin happy! Love you super tons and will talk to you this weekend.

Love ya.

Jules

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samthehamsmom July 10, 2010 at 12:02 am

Heather, what a ROLLER COASTER you guys have been on. I am hoping this little bean sticks, and that you start to feel more like yourself very very soon! Hugs, Laura

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GinnySheller July 10, 2010 at 12:28 am

You've remained in my prayers all week.

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CathyT July 10, 2010 at 1:32 am

Thinking of you and your family.

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Sally July 10, 2010 at 1:43 am

I have indeed been wondering why I couldn't see the post, but I felt that it meant that you needed time. I am so glad that you are surrounded by such loving family and friends during this time. I will be praying for you and the months ahead!

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cathleen July 9, 2010 at 7:50 pm

((((((((((((((((((((Heather))))))))))))))))))

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NicoleFrontierDreams July 10, 2010 at 2:09 am

Sending you tons and tons of love <3 <3 <3

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Nicola @ Which Name? July 10, 2010 at 4:39 am

I like knowing you will take all the time you need. None of us are fretting over anything other than hoping you, little babe, and family, are ok.
Nicola

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Caroline July 10, 2010 at 11:14 am

Hope you all get some rest soon.
Love

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jessica July 10, 2010 at 1:54 pm

What a trip these last few weeks have been for you guys. Warm, excited thoughts to you! I am thrilled for you (and the sweet one!)

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Julia B July 10, 2010 at 5:54 pm

…I saw a poster for this show today and thought of you…I may even go and see this all by myself…blessings to you and your family right now, prayers for this little life….
http://www.colleenaynn.com

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Julia B July 10, 2010 at 5:55 pm

oops, I forgot to say, click on soul song, that's the name of the show and you will understand why I thought of you at this time 😉 blessings.
julia

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Julia B July 10, 2010 at 5:57 pm

http://www.colleenaynn.com/ …not sure what's happened to this comment of mine, but here is the link to soulsong ….

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CatieP July 10, 2010 at 10:04 pm

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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MamaBird July 11, 2010 at 12:54 am

Keeping you and your family in my thoughts & prayers… a few words of inspiration that recently came my way: "hold the space for opportunity." I'm holding it for you with lots of light & love.

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Leanne July 11, 2010 at 1:09 am

Oh Heather I did not see that last post but am so glad to be reading this one. Love to you…may the universe cradle you gently as you settle quickly back into your normal. x

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Louana July 11, 2010 at 7:31 am

Heather I have been thinking of you since I saw part of that previous post, but it disappeared before I read all of it. I hope that things are going well for you and you get a chance for some rest.

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Valarie July 11, 2010 at 8:51 am

Hi Heather, I got your husbands email and though I felt sad about your loss I also felt overjoyed that you were still carrying. Have you been sneezing? because the women folk and I have been talking about you of late. We have a tradition here with wool which I'll explain to you later. I just wanted you to know that we are all holding you in our thoughts and prayers. I'm heading out to the horse farm which has very tempermental internet. I may not be able to visit for a couple of weeks but that doesn't mean I'm not thinking about you. Hugs to you and your little men. Hoping for all the best. love valarie

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Ann July 11, 2010 at 4:24 pm

Take care

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emmalina73 July 12, 2010 at 1:27 am

Sending prayers and hope. Have you tried the anti miscarriage remedy in susun weed's childbearing year? It really worked for my SIL. Sending you hope for a sticky baby, lots of love to you all.

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Cheryl July 12, 2010 at 2:19 am

My prayers and positive thoughts are being sent your way.

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Sigrun July 12, 2010 at 3:10 am

what a bittersweet time–you will be in my prayers. I

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geek+nerd July 13, 2010 at 3:09 am

As you have done for me in the past, I am holding your hand…from all the way in Massachusetts!

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agambroult July 13, 2010 at 10:30 am

well I am glad I'm late coming here, having missed the post you then took down. What a roller coaster. Hang in there,. Heather, and know that there are wishes and prayers coming your way from all corners of the states, if not the globe.

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Rainyday July 13, 2010 at 5:48 pm

Sending strength and *hugs* your way.

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Kristi aka FiberFool July 14, 2010 at 12:01 am

I was wondering what was going on. I'm so glad you are still on the journey!

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jennifer July 14, 2010 at 5:45 pm

oh, dear sweet heather. sending warmth and hugs and support. xoxo

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Lori July 15, 2010 at 4:32 am

Sending love, light and a gentle hug. Bless your heart, and take all the time you need.

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Anna July 15, 2010 at 7:06 pm

I didn't see the full post from Monday, just the starting paragraph for it on my dash board. I'd been worried for you. I'm hoping that things are better now and that all goes well from here on out!!! Sending lots of love and light your way.

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patty-jean July 15, 2010 at 5:43 pm

thinking, praying for you and your family Heather!

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Courtney July 22, 2010 at 3:42 am

Thinking of you – not expecting anything from you – just want you to know that you are in my thoughts a lot. Much love to your whole family.

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renee July 28, 2010 at 5:50 pm

My thoughts are with you. Praying it all turns out well.

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Pia July 28, 2010 at 8:00 pm

Dear Heather!

I have been off blogs for such a long time and I just wanted to write you about what we have been talking a few months ago (the interview), but I'll wait.

Am SO sorry to hear, that you are going through such a hard time. I am sending you lots of love and light!!! <3

Pia

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Amanda August 7, 2010 at 1:06 pm

You are not alone and I understand your loss. I hope your little one continues to grow and you find strength in the support of your famliy, friends and the blogging community. You have a beautiful blog.

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