June 2009

Changes

June 30, 2009


When I went to write my blog post today, I noticed that the past few posts have been pretty heavy on the reflections. I realized just how backed up I am with the projects that need to be completed. I was sitting at my sewing table this morning, and I counted eight pieces that need to be finished up in the next week, which is kind of crazy (although I am excited to share them with all of you). I think that I have let life overwhelm me a bit, and I always hate playing catch-up from moments like these.


I also have a lot of changes coming up with our store. First, we are closing the current online store, and moving it to a simpler and smaller website. The web address will still be the same, but rather then a straight knitting/yarn store, Shivaya will now focus on a variety of handmade and natural products that reflect a bit better the things that I love; hand sewn originals, embroidery, knitting, naturally dyed yarn, and natural soap and oil. There will not be huge selections, but rather pieces will come and go as they are completed.

I loved getting the opportunity to create Shivaya, and to spend my days working at creating a line of natural dyed yarns, but at the same time, I feel a large pull to return to my main responsibility, which is caring and raising my little ones. Employees, 20 hour work days and not being available for my kids as I should be is not the right path for us, so Shivaya will now become a small, speciality shop that reflects my love or art, while still allowing me to be here with my family.

Nothing will change with the blog, and hopefully it will just keeping growing and getting better.

To answer the one question I have gotten most since I made this decision; yes, we will still carry our yarn, but in a very small amount. I will be posting here to the blog, as well as to our newsletter when we have new items in the store.

Thank you to everyone who has helped to make Shivaya what it is. I hope that you will join me as I take a slightly new path.

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Nature and the Self

June 29, 2009

We all have those special places that when we visit, we just feel connected to an important memory or time in our lives. The Denver Botanical Gardens is one of those places for me. I walked the gardens almost every week when I was pregnant with my oldest child. I walked it when I first went into labor, in the Fall after he was born, and many seasons since. I have breastfed in almost every corner of the gardens, I have read countless books, sang countless lullabies, and watched as each year has brought more and more beauty to bloom.

The Gardens have also had a special place in our homeschooling lives as well. It is a wonderful place to discuss everything from photosynthesis, to environmental stewardship. Science, math, literature, storytelling, writing and reading have all been a part of our garden experience, and if nothing else, it is just a great place to relax and take a break from our daily lives.

Some days I have the overwhelming feeling that I need to make sure that my kids see the beauty, that they are paying attention to the ways that flowers grow, to seed pods and pollination. That they understand how special it is that they are able to experience this kind of beauty. Then, of course, I remember that is not the way that kids learn. That running through the gardens, laughing and loving their time, that is how they “get it”.

They may not remember the exact flowers that grew there, but they will remember eating a mango popsicle under the shade of a tree on a hot summer day.

They may not remember the look of the pond in the Japanese garden, but hopefully they will remember sitting for hours on the fence and watching the fish in that same pond.

Photograph by Elwood

Pond Reflections by Jakey

Hopefully they will remember the photographs that they took, and how incredibly neat it is for me to see their excitement at using their mom’s camera to “make pretty pictures”. How their eyes gleam as they tell me that they are now “real photographers”.


What ever memories they have, I hope that a spot like this always holds them dear, and that when I am long gone from this world, that they can stroll through and remember the laughter and love that we always found here.

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A Bit of an Anniversary

June 29, 2009


5 years ago my husband asked me to marry him. It was the best question I have ever been asked, and he has brought so much joy to my life. The last five years have seen the blessings of two healthy children, and so much love that saying “thank you” would never suffice.

We got engaged in Vedauwoo, Wyoming, which is not far from our home. We were lucky enough to return there on our anniversary, and share some time to reflect on the past five years of marriage, and the past 17 years of knowing one another. I am so excited to see what the next five years will bring.

Vedauwoo is a gorgeous spot inside of Medicine Bow National Forest, and if you are ever in the area, you should take a visit. The rock formations are unbelievable, and it is a wonderfully fun place for kids who love a good adventure.

Thank goodness for small moments to remember just how lucky and blessed I am

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A Bit More Embroidery

June 24, 2009

Recently a friend of ours celebrated the birthday of their three year old daughter. I have been intently working on learning hand embroidery for the past few months, and I thought that this would be the perfect opportunity to give my first hand embroidered gift.

It is a very simple piece, with just outlined stitches, but it still felt wonderful to create something with so much intention and joy. My hope is that it will be something that she will cherish as well, and as with everything that we hand make for someone else, a reminder that the art of hand creations is still very much alive and thriving.

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The Meaning of Beauty

June 24, 2009

Every weekend I am going to featuring an artist who is making our world a better place, through their creativity, their passion, and their dedication. Thanks for joining me today.

It is said that beauty is only “skin deep”. For me, this doesn’t ring quite true. Beauty is a broad term, and it has been interpreted to mean many different things. Physical beauty is something that we strive for, as if to make our lives feel whole. Sure, there’s the image that we see each day when we look through the mirror; but what about the beauty in our child’s first smile, or simply a setting sun over the ocean?

Beauty has been capitalized, marketed, bottled and sold to all generations. And while cosmetics are full of toxic chemicals known to cause illness and pollute our environment, it is yet a billion dollar industry, typically playing on the emotions of women of every age. The marketers hope to convince us that life would just be better if we only looked like the models in the advertisements. But what if the model herself set out to break that idea and chose to create a line of cosmetics – and the idea itself – that women are naturally beautiful, and that their makeup should reflect that?

Meet Josie Maran.

Josie has been modeling since the age of 12, and has graced the covers Vogue, Elle, Mademoiselle and Marie Clare. Her career has been long and distinguished, and she has spent her fair share of time in the makeup chair. After the birth of her first daughter Josie looked to the industry that she knew, and at the world she would one day leave to her daughter, and she chose to create a line of cosmetics that strives to emphasize the natural beauty of women, while being as environmentally-friendly as possible.

I decided to write on this subject for two main reasons: First, we all want to feel beautiful, but we also want to know that the products we use on ourselves are genuinely safe for us and for the environment. Second, I know Josie. I went to high school with her, and I know what kind of a person she is. I feel compelled to let people know that beauty can be natural, that its packaging can leave a minimal footprint. And on those days that we dress up and put makeup on, we can still look like ourselves.


The truth is I want to feel beautiful, inside and out. Finding the time to dedicate towards looking my best can be challenging. And I do not believe in many cosmetic companies; makeup is often toxic to us and to our environment. There little regulation on what can be added to it and people make money on our insecurities at the expense of our health.

We all know that many companies have jumped on the “natural” bandwagon, and begun to use words like “eco-friendly, and organic” to describe their brands. But we have very few standards for the use of those words in our food, drink and beauty products, so it can be more of a marketing tool then a fact. It is nice to know that someone out there realized that no matter what the industry, we simply never need to compromise our health or our environment to create a quality product.

I have spent the past 7 weeks researching just what goes into creating makeup, the packaging standards are that are used, and the process for starting a cosmetic line. Most makeup contains parabens, petrochemicals and carcinogens, and the packaging is rarely recyclable. If we really stop to think just how many women wear makeup, the packaging dumped every day, and the combined effect of what the packaging and chemicals are doing to our environment, it is pretty frightening.

Josie’s website and her blog (which is a great read) have a lot of information about her philosophy for creating the Josie Maran cosmetic line. I would also recommend reading two other fantastic sites: The Environmental Working Group and The Campaign for Safe Cosmetics. Both of these organizations provide research on what goes in to various types of beauty products, the harmful properties of each cosmetic line, and a list of safe cosmetics that do the least harm to us and to our environment (the EWG is also the website that we rely on when choosing our shampoos, conditioners and sunscreens).

Back in June, I tested three of Josie’s products, her SPF 30 Tinted Moisturizer, her eye shadow in Cappuccino, and her lip gloss in Cobnfession. I figured that in order to really see the value and natural look of Josie’s makeup, it was important to show you what I look like without it.


So here is what I look like first thing in the morning (you have no idea how hard it is to show this picture), with absolutely nothing on my face.


Stacy Z was kind enough to shoot pictures of me later in the day, and I had to laugh because when I arrived in Boulder to meet her, the first thing out of her mouth was “why aren’t you wearing more makeup?”. Well, the only way this was going to be genuine is if you saw what I would wear normally. There is nothing radically different about me here. I just have a touch of something on that makes me feel natural, but still beautiful. That is the goal, right?


A small amount of natural coverage, a touch of mascara and eye shadow, and a simple lip gloss is enough. I loved the fact that I looked clean, that the makeup I wore was barely noticeable. That is always my goal, but it is often hard to achieve with most cosmetics.

I am so impressed with what Josie has done, with the conscious effort that she puts forth everyday to help women look their best without hurting them or fooling them. I suppose that is what conscious living is all about: working hard to ensure that what you are doing makes a difference, rather than just making a profit.

Thank you again to Stacy Ziegler for her beautiful pictures. To learn more about Stacy, please visit her website and her blog

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